unicidades

Edwin is getting a brother. Not sure what I will call him just yet.

Experiencing a very interesting type of loneliness.

September 25, 2011. Robbins Park, Davie - FL.

September 25, 2011. Robbins Park, Davie - FL.

September 25, 2011 Robbins Park, Davie - FL

March of 2012.

I woke up early to get ready. I got to the location early and it was really nice being outside. The location was a beautiful park in Davie. The photographers were very nice and made me feel comfortable. After they took a lot of pictures, one of the photographers invited me to have brunch with them. I surprised myself by saying yes. Usually, I would just drive home and hide, but I made the effort of accepting the invitation. It was really nice talking to them at the cafe. The food was also good. I had to fight against the sadness I was feeling when we started talking about crepes. I have seen some of the photos. I really like them. These photographers bring the best colors out in the picture. Their style is different and even though I don't like comparisons, I would love to compare four of the same shots just to see how these people perceive what they are photographing. I also could tell that I aged a lot in this past year, when they took my photos last year. I also would like to lo...

Quantas caras tem a morte que separa uma coisa de outra. Quantas caras tem a morte que deixa de luto para sempre. Quanto doi a morte de um filho nao nascido. E a morte de uma mae. E a morte daqueles que ainda vao chegar algum dia. E a morte do amor. E a morte do homem. Quanto doi a morte na separacao. Quanta morte existe numa separacao. Quanta morte ha na mentira aguda que nos contaram e que nos contam. Quanta morte ha no envelhecer. Quanta morte existe na memoria e na nostalgia. E no corredores de hospitais. Quanta morte ha no dedicar-se a um so objetivo e falhar. Quanta morte existe na agonia de querer amar.

J&K Tango Salon Competition NY- July 22, 2011.  3rd Place Winners

Arlette Tango  - From TodoTango . 1944 Music: Antonio Bonavena Lyric: Horacio Sanguinetti Ni los Campos Elíseos, ni el alegre boulevard, No verán ya los luceros de tus ojos verdemar. Hoy el viejo organillero con dolor calla frente a tu ventana su canción ya la Parca te dio cita... y sé que no faltarás. Linda y buena francesita, vos igual que Margarita, llevabas en tu vida, signo fatal. Arlette, no sé por qué tu nombre tiene para mí Arlette, la misteriosa poesía del sufrir. Yo te he visto pensativa muchas noches en la mesa del bar, y tus ojos se perdían en distancias, que cruzaban el mar. Arlette, yo nunca quise que supieras mi pasión. Arlette, no sé: por qué calló mi pobre corazón. Arlette, mas hoy que sé tu triste fin a tu recuerdo confiaré mi gran amor. Cuando nieve su tristeza en el bar, el acordeón, te veré siempre en la mesa con tu copa de licor. Y veré tus labios tristes aletear, ya conocidos, de hablar solos y fumar. Y la copa de mi vida...

Tangazo.

I have to do research on what to wear in a photo shoot done in a park. I think I will wear my hair curly and go for a more natural look. Not sure about make up and nail polish just yet. I have a lot to do...

My new tango dress is almost ready. It's a black and seal dress with a black lace cover. The skirt flows so nicely.  I can't wait to have it. I took this picture while I was waiting to try it on.  I was listening to tango... That store is so small and cute.  It's funny that it's in the same strip mall where I used to go see a psychotherapist a few years ago. My life is so different now.

The party on Sunday was not my cup of tea at all. To make things worse I got an allergic reaction from the mosquito bites and my legs look horrible. I hope they look better on Sunday, the day I have to do the modeling. Ugh. I wish I could have predicted it. I would have totally avoided going, but I guess I wanted to see my friend.

One of my classmates from my Monday class is moving to San Francisco to be with his fiancee. I guess they are getting married soon. I am very happy for him. He met her dancing tango. Relationships in tango are very complicated, but it seems like they will make it work. He's driving to SF - he is heading to a new life.

Musica: Armando Pontier - Letra: Oscar Rubens Orquesta Carlos Di Sarli Canta: Alberto Podestá Fue en el puerto que te halle ya sin fe y valor en la densa oscuridad de una noche cruel cuando un barco anclado triste y desolado y en tu gris mirada huellas del pasado sin saber quien eras vos te brindé un hogar donde al fin hallaste amor ternura y paz cuando podrás pagarme algun dia lo que humilde te ofrecia y que tanto me costaba hijos! porque mi alma se espanta ...

I just got back from another milonga. Alone. Sweaty. Tired. Disappointed. But the nice thing about tonight's milonga is that I met an old milonguero from Buenos Aires.We danced two tandas. A waltz tanda and a tango tanda. It is really different to dance with someone from Argentina, I mean it's different to dance with a milonguero. Both tandas were nice, my the tango tanda was very hard. Tomorrow he is coming to CITA and I hope to dance with him again.

I came home last night after the milonga feeling so empty. I had the energy to reply to my email messages and listen to music, but somehow I felt empty. The milonga sucked and I really missed having a partner to dance with. I am at work today and I had a very nice conversation with a gentleman who seems to be a very nice person. The more I get to know people, the more I see how unfair life is. Or maybe, life is fair. Maybe life is so fair that people get certain things and lack others because that is the way it's suppose to be. Trusting people seems so difficult. Being trusted also seems so difficult.  I was carried away last night and I wanted to write a poem. The poem never happened.  Reading your e-mails slowly. Re-reading your e-mails and just not responding. There's a part of me that likes distancing itself from you. You were never really close to me, except perhaps in the physical context. But I needed you to be close to me in a different way. And now you are...

I left u in my dreams and my dreams turned tea black tea

It must mean something that Florida is the state number one in cases of insurance fraud.

I am trying to keep myself as busy as I can. Tonight I am seeing my niece and then heading to a tango class. I am working tomorrow and then heading to Coral Gables to see a friend and on my way back I plan on going to a milonga. I am still unsure about Sunday. Next Sunday though, I have a modeling session. Woo-hoo!

Un tangazo.

In love with these.

In black and white at CITA after the workshop.

Same picture in sepia.

On my way to the workshop with Sol and Leo at CITA.