unicidades

I put my fear aside and I am taking photography classes. It is much more challenging than I had imagined. It's cold out. Sunny. My thoughts are still hiding from me. Maybe in a cloud. Maybe in the ocean. I have been busy and it has been good. Life is like those photos I saw recently: sometimes the focus changes. We see the water better. Sometimes, we see the glass sharper. Work is interesting. I changed my attitude towards my customers. I still teach Portuguese. Manolo sleeps with me every night and he's taken my heart away. Not sure how I feel about modeling. Or dating or life in general. My dad has been sick and I am not sure what to do. My brother and I ran into each other at Publix the other day. Hard to know what's going on. Going to Jimmie's Chocolates on a date tonight for the first time. That should mean: I am going there for the first time and it's on a date. Not sure it was clear enough. I will soon be 36 years-old. I actually like the...

Pouco a pouco as nuvens se afastam. Brilha um sol timido na esquina de um olhar perdido. Vertem sorrisos de um canto qualquer. E o mar se aproxima como se tivesse longas pernas que caminham a passos largos. Te chamo sem intencao. Aos poucos. Languido. Pouco a pouco chove. As coisas se alinham. E se desarrumam. Eu me desarmo na singeleza de pequenos gestos. Volto como se a volta me garantisse qualquer coisa. Qualquer coisa que agora nao esta. Qualquer coisa que agora sufoca. E pesa. Durmo, um sono denso. Vinte coisas para fazer. Estar em varios lugares. Ser mais de uma. Sentir-me viva e nao tao desolada. Ou isolada. Presa. Presa facil. De. Te estranho como se nao pertencesses mais ao meu corpo.