I am on a personal quest. I want to be able to know who I am. My identity. My likes and dislikes. I am on a quest to find myself. To create my own life based on my beliefs and principles. I am on a quest to find love. I am on a quest to be at peace with my solitude and my decisions. I am trying to create a home that represents me. My refuge that expresses what I am, what I like. Colors, textures, traces of me all over. I see meaning on things. I create meaning for things. I want beauty and depth and intensity and truth. Therapy helped last year. I want a meaningful love. Uncommon, wholesome, love. Love that doesn't take advantage. Pure love. Crazy, passionate love. Joseph Campbell explored the idea of quests on his "The Power of Myth". Love his work. His assessment of modern society and how lost we are. If not you, then who? Unimaginable right now to find the right one. I see my mom on some of the things I do. Some of the things I am, were hers. John Coltrane....