unicidades

The house is empty. It's sunny out and the sky is blue. Perfect silence upon us. Hands together. The perfect warmth of your body in mine. Don't let me go or vanish from your life. I have grown. I turned 40 this past February. I remember how hungry I used to be - hungry, thirsty for life that is. Now I have seen more. It's been over ten years that I started living. Living with color and grace. 10 years of Tango dancing - on and off. Heart permitting. I am reading the Motivation Manifesto. It is helping me brew a very intrinsic desire I always have had. I am still interested in writing. That has been my favorite activity for a long time. Along with Music, Dancing and Reading. Got familiar with the work of Dr. Nuland recently. Amazing writer. Life gets tiring sometimes.

I didn't know. I didn't care. I don't want to know. I just want to move on. Because everything hurts right now. The silence, the words, the dreams, things that we didn't do or say. Things that would have sounded good good, things that would've been ok to say. The great nights that were all evaporated into something that was more imagined than lived. I do remember the laughter in that place where we used to meet for coffee and poetry. I remember the colors of those days and the words I invented to define what I was when I was holding you. I used to like so many things about you. And now time has created a new you and a new me. I'm taking a boat. I want to see what's like on the other side. Olivia wasn't who you thought she was. She waves at you from a distance. Distance is all she asks. And she looks and looks. Because she has herself. She doesn't borrow things from people because she knows they will leave her and take things back. So she learns...