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The Art of Painting Green

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Nocturne: Blue and Silver - Cremorne Lights by James Whistler 1872 I see peace and light and the smell of a fresh morning near the lake or the canal. It's windy out, we walk. We sing. We laugh out loud, no worries. We are two strong people walking, touching the sand, carving wood, living in the land of promises. We wait, we belong, we starve. Your green is what saves me from boredom. Nonetheless, one is never safe.

By This River

Why we came?! Why did we come? A great song by Brian Eno. "you talk to me as if from a distance" That distance is what is going to break us apart. I can touch that distance. It's so heavy and hard. It makes me cry when I am alone.

Lessons

Metta.

Last La Pituca

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Tormenta

Talvez quando chegue a aurora, terá passado essa chuva cinza e fria que hoje nos molha. Essa chuva que nos trouxe de novo a realidade e a descoberta de um inverno impetuoso. Talvez quando chegue a aurora, tuas mãos de novo serão minhas companheiras na libertina conquista de teu corpo. Talvez quando sopre menos o vento e não caiam tantas gotas grossas em meus olhos, eu possa de novo olhar-te com o olhar renovado.  E me iluminar no teu sorriso. Quando esse dia-noite passar, talvez eu possa esperar algo de novo. De ti, da vida, do amor. Até mesmo da beleza insana de ser diferente. Talvez me sobrem nos bolsos alguns trocados, lenços já usados, e incertezas.  Mas na varanda há uma rede, música, um vinho quente com mel e limão e perguntas.  Essa mania insensata de questionar o mundo. No lago, a chuva. Insistindo em ser castigo. Talvez quando chegue a aurora eu aceite as diferenças, celebre estar viva,  dê boas-vindas ao cinza chumbo deste dia que não se cansou ainda de ser tormenta.

Dew Drops

A fallen flower Flew back to its perch A butterfly. Moritake

Desire

Desire. In Love. Jose James. Some songs are able to awake all of my senses.

Fog

It makes me happy when you write. It doesn't matter if you talk about colors that I cannot identify. I'm finally starting my own business. I took three tango classes last week and that feels pretty darn good.  I also managed to attend a milonga. I went to a public place and danced as well. I've been told people were watching. It didn't bother me. It was raining a little. I think I am finally getting it. The flowers look beautiful on my table. On one side of the table, I have the merchandise; on the other side, my paintings and my tango books. Let's protect what is still pure within us. The older I get, more feline I get. I need a nap as soon as possible.

Blah, blah, blah

Can I go home already and sleep all day long? Could someone wake me up when this is over? Thanks.

Troilo

El Pichuco In my trip to Buenos Aires back in 2004, I had no idea. Tango allows me to be intense and passionate.
Completely not productive today. I've been dragging myself from the living room to the computer, then to the kitchen, then to my bedroom, since I got up. Yucky day.

Words, words, words.

Why do you see everything so negatively. I am good at this, I am good at networking. I feel like I am becoming more isolated because of you. These were your rules. I am not a babysitter. This is not about you, it's about me and my world. I'd be stupid if I didn't stop to look at her. Everything was great. Then that's your problem. Life is not black and white. You can't cut things like that. It's not normal. What's wrong? DO you want me to be like you? Walking around with a straight face all the time?

Love

From PostSecret. The Weight of Love.

Breathing

Because you know what, shit happens and you just have to keep on going.

Haiku

The white chrysanthemums at dawn Look taller than they are. Yasen.

Thoughts

Follow my Bliss.

Criticism

Some people talk about things they don't know based on impressions or assumptions. I am guilty of that too. What else could you do if you have to have an opinion on someone or something? The thing is, even if what's written is not about what I think it is, it made me think. I can barely walk today. Work is crazy. The dancing was very nice last night. I am discovering how to embrace: the tango embrace, the embrace that feels like we're one body moving together. I've never danced with my Comme il Faut at CITA until last night. I think they have a very good dance floor. It's not too sticky and it's not slippery. It’s not very big, but once people start leaving it’s big enough for two people to find each other.

Trenzas

In moments of great suffering, I have surrounded myself with great tango songs. There's always a line there to learn from, to be inspired by or just to help me cry.

last milonga

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Tú el cielo y tú Tango 1944 Música: Mario Canaro Letra: Héctor Marcó Tibio está el pañuelo, todavía, que tu adiós me repetía desde el muelle de las sombras. Tibio, como en la tarde muere el sol, mi sol de nieve, sin esperanza y sin alondras. Tibio guardo el beso que dejaste en mis labios al marcharte porque aún no te olvidé...Tú...yo sé que el cielo, el cielo y tú, vendrán acá para salvar mis manos presas a esta cruz. Si esta mentira audaz busca mi pena, no la descubras tú que me condena.Guárdala en ti, que es mi querer, desengañarme así será más cruel. No...no me repitas ese adiós...que esto lo sepa sólo Dios, el cielo y tú...

A man's words

If a man tells you he cannot offer you anything, listen to him. He's probably being sincere and he's probably right.