It took me several years...

...to understand that I did what I should have done in 2005. It's true that your memories cloud your judgment. After reading Mr. M's e-mails yesterday, I realized that there was never a real chance for connection. Yes, I was crazy about him. The way he looked at things, his intelligence, his strong character. And then I was left with Mr. M's impressions of me. The list of negatives and positives. Yes. Personality is everything in a relationship. Mr. M's list confirmed what I thought he thought of me. How sad! I moved on, Mr. M.  for good (at last!) and the guilt is gone. I am finally free. You were right, our love was impossible.