Sailing

A friend of mine invited me to go sailing with a bunch of people today. I feel so conflicted about going. I feel like canceling. I honestly don't have the least desire to do small talk today. I do know that if I stay home, I will be crying and going over the same s**t again.

There was only one time in my life that I told someone I could not live without him.

I don't feel like going anywhere. I want to crawl back in bed and wake up after, after so long.